i'm going this far not only for this far

This quick post dedicated to my long hair which is accidentally cut off and becoming TOO SHORT. Jadi ini rambut lama gue : 

Lalu kemarin mbaknya bilang "iya iya ngerti" dan taunya jadi segini.

Jujur gue cuman bisa nangis sejam. Sejam selanjutnya nonton Twice. Sejam berikutnya mencoba self love. Ini. Pendek. Banget. I didn't expect this much, but I really hope as I cut my hair, all the sorrow will also gone by. 

But as I wrote this post, so many things happened... So many things. Like so. Many. Things. Semuanya berantakan, all at once. Lalu gue harus mengaktifkan survival mode gue. Allah lagi menjauhkan segala hal yang gue mau, mengacak-acak perasaan gue, dan menjatuhkan gue sejatuh-jatuhnya manusia yang punya rencana tapi harus sadar kalau pada akhirnya ya Allah yang menentukan apakah rencana itu akan berjalan atau nggak.

Gue harus move on --dari gue yang cinta segala kepastian, jadi gue yang siap dengan worst cases in every situation. I'm going this far not for giving up, kan? Jadi apapun masalah gue, even everything fall at once, I'll take care the mess by my self.

I can do it. I know I'm capable and I won't ever let it destroy me anymore.

Never.